holy SHIT WE MADE IT.
366 days of 2016, all accounted for.
69 posts. 5,622 views and 545 likes from over 50 countries, and then this! 25 posts in 25 days. It’s been so much fun, I can’t thank you all enough.
At the end of every year, as well as choosing 3 or so resolutions, I write an overview of my year and ask the divine spirits and my future self for something.
2014 ended and I reflected that it had been the best and the brightest. I was on fire, I was brilliant – but I was exhausted and empty. I thanked the year for setting me alight but also recognised that I had well and truly emotionally burnt out.
At the start of 2015 I asked for love.
2015 I learnt to love myself again and I also learnt to love someone else and, miraculously what it was like to be loved back. It was a giddy and unbelivable year. But like most fragile and perfect things it inevitably broke. I was so grateful for it but it also shattered me in ways I couldn’t have imagined. I needed to heal and I needed to be better.
2016 I wanted success.
2016 was tough but I was tougher. I studied harder than I have before and my grades went up. I joined clubs, I signed up for volunteering, I got new jobs at more grown up places. I started saving money, I started this blog?!?! And slowly but surely I pulled my life out of a downwards plummet into a whole different trajectory. I think this year will always taste bitter on my tongue but I am still proud of it. I fought fucking hard to make every personal sacrifice I had to make last year worth it – and I did. It was the hardest most hollow thing I have ever done; fighting for something that I wish I could have given up on. But I did it and no matter what else went wrong – in 2016 I know I went right.
So, 2017 I think I will ask for adventure and the bravery to take it. The seeds that I planted this year are starting to take root, I have let go of so many things I didn’t know how to before now and I am free to live and let live – so bring on a rager of a year. Let’s have fun, let’s go hard and thanks to this mess of a blog let’s do it together.
It’s the end of the year and I know how to shine, I know how to love and importantly I think, these days I also know how to fight.
Most relevant for tonight though – I know how to dance!
so HAPPY NEW YEAR my babies.
You have made me so happy and I could not have done it without you.
Wishing you warmth, release and hope for 12am – and a little bit of craziness too.
Love from your girl,