Not Quite July: On being 21

I am 21 now and I can feel myself settling so comfortably into this age. It’s been a long time since eighteen. That was the year where I learnt how to feel like I was on fire. The whole world was electrically charged and I couldn’t touch anything without some flame sparking up. I was…

You Don’t Have To Like It

I was reading all my old school reports and you know something about me is that mostly I was a really good kid and a really good student so all my reports are really nice right? And I was reading them and I couldn’t help wondering if it was obvious back then that I would…

Things I Love (Short)

Things I Love: The ocean. The colour pink, but a smooth and soft sort of pink, the kind that is sunrise and lips and soft angora. Soft angora. Brown paper wrapping with string and little leaf decorations. Chocolates that come in boxes with fancy wrapping. The feeling of infinite possibility. Driving with the windows down…

Some Advice

Live with people who make you laugh. Cry laugh until there are streams rushing down your cheeks and your jaw aches and your head is crinkled inside and out and you can’t even breathe anymore because there is all laughter, no air. Live with people who make you ugly snort and curl up on the…

I Got A Tattoo?

I kind of realised that a lot of the posts I have been drafting have been coming from this really small and sad part of me. Like they weren’t bad posts or written on bad topics, but they were built on this really vulnerable and weak foundation – which is weird because I am okay…

On: Being Busy

I am busy. Crazy, ridiculously busy. I would like to say that I didn’t mean my life to be like this but I did. I anticipated this, I planned it this way – and now I am reaping exactly what I sowed, both the sweet and disastrous. It’s been outstandingly rewarding – like real life, full…

28th February

Hey it’s February and hey i’m exhausted. I am the kind of person who catches up on sleep in the morning and it has now been 8 days of early wake ups and long full days of people and activity and work. My breaks are limited, my mood is finally starting to turn but I am…

On: Books I Love

I love to read. As an only child reading was the biggest form of entertainment when I was tired of imagining things up by myself. I was the kid that read everywhere; eating breakfast, in the car, while walking home and it always made me so happy. I would devour books in a couple of…

HAPPY TWO YEARS AUCKLAND

I have a photo of me leaving home Wellington. I was a toothy braces smile with a messy ponytail and bubble gum pink backpack, my mum peeking at the camera from behind my shoulder. I remember how warm that day was; squeezing my cat into one last hug; being so excited to go. I was…

The Best and Worst Auckland City Beaches

After almost two years in the city with minimal effort spent on branching out to see what Auckland had to offer we decided that this summer was going to be one of beaches. Armed with a bottle of rapidly depleting sunblock (RIP) and dreams of the $2 Tiptop trumpet deals we made it a mission to head to as many…

I AM LATE TO CATCH MY BOAT

I am meant to be leaving in twenty minutes and I am not dressed or packed or close to ready but the people I am going with are the ones who have forgiven me one million times over and will continue to forgive me as second nature forever. Even when I make us a few…

What’s In A Name

Zarrin-Taj. I like my name but it has always been heavy and conspicuous. Like lugging a suitcase through a party where everyone else is carrying discreet shoulder bags. The other day the amazing Vanessa linked me this article by Durga Chew-Bose and it resonated. Part of me was pleased, the way I always am when…